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Thursday, 10 August 2017

Magazines vs Blogging

Blogging has taken a step back over the last couple of months due to work commitments, moving house twice, the common cold and a severe lack of inspiration rooted from stress. However, I have taken the time to really think about the direction I want my blog to go and where I want it to take me. So you’ll just have to wait, see, surprise...

If you caught Maria J Blogs on BBC Breakfast recently you will know that she was on there to talk about the differences between the blogging and magazine industry with ex Features Editor of British Vogue.

It was argued that magazines are a dying industry. I disagree on some level. Yes, a weekly issue like OK! and HELLO! go out of date very quickly when it is revolving around celebrity gossip - that is what the Daily Mail Online is for... However, monthly publications often write for the future, such as fashion magazines predict styles and more and more are writing about current affairs, politics and sex education, which I feel are really important topics that should be shown to everyone on the planet.

What I agree with is publications and magazines that are printed and distributed on a large scale will start to die out as the lack of diversity of content they are offering will not be as interesting as what people can find online. I disagree because independent publications are showing raw and engaging content, which includes images and articles from real people covering real issues. These are often created by people who have blogged in the past or have the same views and values as people of the internet.

In this generation, the internet is the source of everything, and although there is still fear and backlash, more and more human beings are open to who they are and really offering a raw and honest version of themselves, hoping that even just one person can relate and know they are not alone. This is a taboo for the magazine industry as if a person is seen less than aesthetically pleasing or stands out from outside society's beauty norms, they will not make the cut. Imagine seeing hairy legs in Cosmopolitan? I think not. But go on my Instagram stories... well probably.

As it states, “Vogue is a brand” and this is the same for bloggers, who create a brand out of themselves hoping to influence the public. I understand I am talking about the minority of bloggers, however, the majority who want to do this for a living, or get paid work from it, will create a brand out of themselves or their blog by gaining a trusting audience. Both industries strive towards the same thing, from sharing new products to influencing the general public. Bloggers will offer honest reviews of products, they will express their personal experience and opinions on any topic they please, whereas an editorial magazine cannot, and will not do this. To save them, teaming up with bloggers would be an awesome thought.

To paraphrase Maria’s words (because I can’t find the damn clip anymore on the internet), “you open the pages of a fashion magazine and it’s hard to find someone relatable, whereas you can go online, search a hashtag and find someone who you see yourself in.” Genuine people with their own ideas are flooding the web and it’s so beautiful to have access to different opinions and inspiration without it going through a series of editors scrutinising work in case they get dragged by the media for approaching taboo subjects.

Teen Vogue, however, is making huge strides in the right direction. With Elaine Welteroth as new Editor-in-Chief, the magazine is encompassing all aspects of being human. Their most recent controversial article was about anal sex. A lot of people have argued negatively, with the main focus of it being a “teen” magazine. In my opinion it is an exit, not an entrance, however, it does not affect my daily life in any way if other people want to do that, therefore, it is not a problem and will never be a problem and they have every reason to write this piece for any generation as we all deserve to be educated. They are doing what the education system won't.

Then we have independent magazines who are the most precious and really make a difference in the world with their words and imagery. These are the likes of, Sunday Girl, Lionheart and Roundtable, which are favourites of mine. Being published has always been my number one dream and although I can publish as much as my little heart wishes on my blog, it’s just not the same as seeing your name printed on the paper pages above an article you’re passionate about on the shelves for anyone to take (and pay for, I do not condone theft.)

I’m a very visual person and for someone who loves to read and write, magazines are a nice way to read about current issues and thought proving articles in a calm environments where notifications and pop ups aren’t averting your eyes every three seconds sub-consciously stressing you out when you just want to know who wore it best. I take great inspiration from magazines and their glossy or matte pages.

I think with everything, there are positives and negatives to each industry and being able to embrace each other is something that needs to be welcomed. There is an underlying cat fight where each feels threatened by the other. It does not need to be this way. With a generation of talented creatives, we should all be coming together and exploring the world.

Wednesday, 31 May 2017

Hello world, nice to meet you

While I have been sat here, preaching that you can only be your best self, I have come to realise that I wasn’t doing the same for me. I had a mind blowing, classic ‘take your own advice’ moment recently and well, it brought me here. May has been a month that has challenged me in all aspects of life and thrown me that chapter further into adulthood. I have gained a whole lotta experience and I know this is going to sound like a cringeworthy cliché even before I write it down, but I want to live in the moment. I want to enjoy my life without being stuck in a box and stop freaking the fuck out about things. Oh, and that’s another thing. I swear. Like a fuck tonne and I haven’t yet on my blog and really if we’re doing the honesty thing here then that’s a good place to start. It seems silly that we actually have to constantly remind ourselves that it's ok to do what we want and to take the time to enjoy ourselves. For example, I haven’t posted on my blog for a month and to most bloggers will likely turn their nose up at me, but I don’t even care because I’ve had a smile on my face every single day and that’s worth more than anything.

Social media for one is a big place to start. Even the words social media make me feel a little weak because it’s such a deep-rooted problem in our society that I can’t begin to comprehend how I will overcome this problem. Something about it gets me drawn in and makes me think I can’t go on without possibly knowing what people I’ve never met are getting up to. And suddenly I came to realise that my life was watching other people having fun and not actually having any fun myself. In fact, I actually check my phone so much I literally have to turn the entire thing off so I’m forced to look up from my luminous blue screen and have a genuine conversation with someone. That’s really fucking sad.

When it comes to my blog, this post is for my benefit more than anyone else's. It’s to tell myself and to remind myself that I don’t have any rules to follow when it comes to my own life and my blog. I will write what and when I please, I will talk about things that actually, genuinely interest me and that I’m passionate about, and if that means three people read it then I am god damn grateful for those three people. It’s about the blunt realisation of me being twenty-one years old with my eyes on my phone, instead of my eyes on the world. And it’s not the world I want to live in. So I won’t. Decision made.

Don’t get me wrong. Social media is incredible for many reasons (yes including stalking people you have a fat off crush on) but like with anything, there are negatives and when it’s controlling my day to day functionality, it’s not something I want to be down with all of the time.

I want to be a writer. It’s what makes me happy. It’s what I will do when I’m happy or sad or angry or in love. It’s why I started my blog, so I could write more and share more and connect with likeminded people. And I’m not going to stop, I’m just not going to stress out over sticking to a made up schedule. It’s not how a hobby should be enjoyed - and I’m not saying it doesn’t work for everybody because I do like routine, but with every day that comes, I develop as a person and my thoughts and ideas about the world change. And that’s pretty cool and fun so I want to remember that moment, not how many days I’ve gone without posting on Instagram… oh, brain...

I’m messy. That’s who I am, that’s why I write the messy edit because that represents me. There’s something quite beautiful about being messy. It’s real and raw. Messy kisses, messy hair, messy fun.

So hello world. Nice to meet you.

Sunday, 30 April 2017

Let's Have Coffee | 21 Facts About Me

I thought it was time for people to get to know me a little better so I put together twenty random facts about me that may or may not be of any interest to anyone... ENJOY!
  1. I'm half French but can speak a total of 11 french words. Thanks, school
  2. I'm currently writing my first novel
  3. When I say I write poetry I just rhyme words
  4. I'm 5'1" and can never reach the top shelf of anything
  5. I'm part of the LGBTQ+ community and proud
  6. My first plant was a peace lily called Wanda
  7. I had my first kiss aged 18
  8. I have four tattoos and seven piercings... so far
  9. I know almost every fact about Marilyn Monroe
  10. Snow White is my favourite Disney Princess
  11. I am a Scorpio and really into astrology
  12. I don't eat meat or dairy
  13. Imagine Dragons are my favourite band
  14. I can nap anywhere at anytime
  15. My superpower would be to breathe underwater or telekinesis
  16. I have jumped out of a plane at 10,000 feet
  17. I still have two baby teeth
  18. Bracelets are the only jewellery I don't wear
  19. I keep a five-year diary
  20. If I can help it I don't like my food to mix on the plate
  21. I love my girlfriend Claudia

Comment below if you have any similarities to me!

Sunday, 16 April 2017

What's In My Bag?

I'm not even kidding... these posts and videos are always my favourites. I don't know why but it probably has to do with me being incredibly nosey and a person's bag being so unapologetically them it kinda has a beauty all on its own.

Now, unlike most people, my handbag has to be organised and clean and otherwise I will lose everything, never to be seen again. Although before I became an "adult" (using this term very lightly) it would be sugar lined, full of old coins and empty wrappers.

Purse - I love changing my purse around and swapping it every now and then. This gem is from Skinnydip sporting a metallic blue scale pattern, which I love because it can also pass as a clutch for when you don't want to carry around a big bag. Mermaid lovers this is right up your street. I always carry around one or two polaroids in there with me too so I know I've always got my loved ones close.

Phone - Obviously my phone is an essential, along with my house keys. I'll be honest I actually always have my phone in my pocket because when it's in my bag I can't hear it when no one rings me. My case is also from Skinnydip, channelling the embroidery trend that's around. I love cases with a texture as I am such a fidgety person when I'm walking and usually I'll have my hands in my pockets playing with a paperclip or something.

Sunglasses - I really really like sunglasses, however, I wear glasses full time and I don't get on too well with contact lenses meaning I occasionally have to choose between style and sight... Now it's Spring time I'm starting to bring sunnies with me more often. My babies are from Quay Australia who honestly has the sickest frames. These are sold in Topshop so you've probably seen them around. If you're in the market for some new ones this year I would have a good look at Quay.

Perfume - As hard as I try I ALWAYS forget to put perfume on, so I decided to start carrying perfume in my bag in case I leave the house and realise what a fool I have been. I'm currently wearing i am SO...? which is such a gorgeous spring fruity scent. It's part of their new collection and is just dreamy.

Headphones - Does anyone else feel truly lost without their headphones? At the moment I'm listening to the #MondayMotivation playlist on Spotify every day of the week. There are some crackers on there let me tell you, so if you don't already know it, get on it. I'm also really into old school Lana Del Rey at the moment (thanks Heidi).

Lipstick - I always carry a lipstick in my bag with me just in case something comes up and I need to spice up my make up a little bit. I'm currently carrying the Barry M Satin Super Slick Lip Paint in the shade 'Truffle Shuffle - 168' that I've had since last year. Simple shades are incredibly versatile so I can trust no matter what I'm wearing it will go.

Diary - I don't always carry my diary around with me because I am small and weak and I try and avoid having a heavy bag, however, I should really because I end up with about ten post-its floating around in my bag to transfer over later. This is the first time I've actually stuck to a paper diary because it usually gets to about beginning of January and I've given up. My memory is a piece of sh*t these days and because suddenly I have a life I need one.

Tampons & Paracetamol - I'm not going to hide any reality. I'm a girl and once a month blood rushes from my vagina, therefore I need to be prepared. It's also good to carry tampons or pads around in case your friends need one too. I do like to carry around paracetamol as well because who know when the pain will come knocking on the door...


Wednesday, 12 April 2017

L'Oréal Elvive Extraordinary Clay Re-Balancing Shampoo & Conditioner

What could you want more than smooth silky hair...? Probably a lot but it's a start eh?

If you've read this post: Tips for Badass Blonde Hair, then you'll already know my hair has been through a lot in a short space of time. I've bleached the hell out of it, loaded hair dye upon hair dye and it recently got to the point I basically had to chop most of it off it was so rank - but I have found my silicone-free saving grace.

L'Oréal Elvive Extraordinary Clay Re-Balancing Shampoo and Conditioner are honestly the best hair products I have ever used. I've always has pretty good experience's with their shampoos so I knew one way or another we were going to get on, however, little did I know we get on like a house on fire. I am in love. The clay based shampoo and conditioner claims to re-balance your hair, specifically targeting people with oily roots and dry ends to finally tame your tresses. This, my friend, is true.

"Oil produced from the scalp can build up causing the roots to become visibly greasy, weighing down the hair. Over-washing to combat this problem can strip the fibre leaving it dry. This results in a vicious cycle of washing. What if you could have hair that was cared for at both ends?"

When using the shampoo and conditioner together it hydrates ends and leaves roots pure for 72 hours, holding on to beaut hair a little longer between washes. Also avoids anyone washing like merry heck. Three refined clays are mixed in the product leaving your hair perfectly balanced and beautiful. Plus it smells flipping great. The conditioner leaves my hair light from the scalp and not heavy on my hair at all. I have pretty thick hair and it just feels all light and fluffy afterwards, which is such a bonus and something thick haired people struggle with. My hair is so shiny and soft, often with a little bounce (usually when running to work).

The main reason I fell in love with this product is because the results were immediate. I genuinely had new hair afterwards and in fact, after going out after the first wash, people commented saying my hair looked shiny and health. Is that not what we all strive for? I think so. I do feel like I have my old hair back. It's the kind of shampoo that lathers really well for those crazy bath hairstyles and foam beards. That's right, I know what's up.

As I mentioned before, these products are silicone -free. Ever wondered why your favourite shampoo and conditioner just 'stop working' for you? This is because of the silicone in it. This specific ingredient 'cones' your hair creating a barrier meaning your hair is unable to be hydrated, leaving it dry and brittle. Not only that, silicone makes the product really hard to rinse out of your hair as it's water insoluble creating a heavy greasy build up over time. Seems like an odd thing to put in shampoo... Luckily this baby has none of that.

The shampoo smells great as you would expect from a brand like L'Oréal and is currently around £2.50 a bottle in all major stores. There is nothing I don't like about this product. Highly recommend.


Wednesday, 29 March 2017

Social Anxiety vs FOMO

As you may or may not have noticed I've missed a couple of posts in the last week... I've recently got a new full-time job and I'm trying to find the balance between work, blog, play. I'm still searching for it so you will have to bear with me while I sort my life out. Thank you, love you.

In the last month, I've gone from sleeping all day every day to working all day and having something on nearly every night. I would have never thought my life would ever be something like this. A social life... me?! You're kidding, right? Some of you may know my tempestuous relationship with mental heath and since leaving school anxiety has played a large in my daily life. This translates into many aspects of my general being, but throwing myself more out of my comfort zone has let my anxiety think it has a right to join in on the fun too. If you don't know what FOMO means, it's the Fear Of Missing Out. So those nights you've gone on a night out even though you have work the next morning at 6.00 am and are broke af, is because you had the fleeting feeling of FOMO.

If you have anxiety or panic attacks then you'll be familiar with the feeling of not wanting to miss out but also not wanting to leave the house under any circumstances... If you don't know this feeling, imagine walking into a room naked and having the world see you and laugh so you run home and never want to talk to anyone again. It's that, but without the naked part actually happening.

BUT THAT'S NO MORE. I've pushed myself to do a lot more recently to get used to different situations, which has helped me a lot. The more comfortable I get in social engagements the less scary it is and the less I dread leaving the house. My confidence has grown a lot too through a million things changing to me within the last two months. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger hey... *cue Kelly Clarkson replaying in your head for the rest of the week*. So don't be afraid to try new things. It's actually gotten to the point where I get bored at home and I want to go out and do something. And now I've accidentally booked myself something every day and evening for the next two weeks. That's pretty impressive for someone who likes to sleep.

I think a lot of the times I've underestimated myself. I am capable of so much and for me often a case of mind over matter. There are times that no matter how much I ask myself "what is there to be afraid of" during a social activity, the feeling doesn't go away, and I know that's ok. I'm not perfect and not everything will always go to plan. But as long as I gave it a go in the first place and pushed through, that's all that matters. The other day I did something that just a few months ago would have given me a panic attack and it didn't. I wrapped myself tightly in a blanket post event, however, it's a stepping stone and I'm proud of myself for doing that thing.

It is also good to have someone you can talk to when you're out and feeling a little wobbly. I find that telling someone I feel anxious actually, makes me feel better because I'm letting it out rather than suppressing it. Even if it's just a text to a friend or family member means you've addressed your problem. If you don't have anyone to talk to, talk to me. Seriously. Drop me a message, a tweet, whatever you'd like and I'll do my best. Nothing you're feeling is weird to me. Trust me - I get anxious over the weight of cutlery...

I have this thing I do called "grounding". When I've been around people for a while I sometimes feel light and floaty and I need to be grounded. So I get into bed with five or six layers on, wrap a blanket or duvet over me and put on my anxiety hat (my favourite woolly hat.) The weight of the layers ground me and I feel secure. Weight and warmth help a lot. If you are someone who shakes when you're panicking... putting on more clothes or getting someone to hug you tightly from behind is good too. Understandably you don't always want to be touched so curl up instead. You will know what feels right. I have to admit, singing along to the Wicked soundtrack always helps too because I sing along to every single word which is a good distraction. Also Wicked is magic too...

Just take a step back and understand the situation. Put less pressure on yourself to "perform" well. You're only a human being you can only do the best you can and it's ok. If you embarrass yourself, so what?! It's not like it's never happened to someone else before. Be nice to yourself and at the end of the day, a little pat on your back and a well done is all you need. Small or big milestones - they're all important

I mean I'm no guru and these are suggestions and ways I've found that help myself. Listen to your body and understand your anxiety. If you can relate and have any tips on how to deal with social anxiety, share them below and help each other out.

Sunday, 19 March 2017

Dear Teenage Self

A while ago I found myself reading a letter written in Vogue by Victoria Beckham to her eighteen-year-old self. If you haven’t read it I would really recommend it because it got me thinking about a lot of things. What I wish I knew then and how I could help myself with what I know now. We’re eternally learning and it’s fascinating to realise that for every moment there’s a lesson, there always an opportunity to broaden your skills and knowledge. I gave my own letter a go...

Dear Emily-Marie,

You’re not having fun, that's for sure. With friends, with your health, with who you like and don’t like. It won’t be easy but it’s better that way because you’ll be stronger from it. You’re not like the other girls and you won’t ever want to be.

You’ll miss around two years of school because of your health, but while you’re sat in the hospital waiting for yet more blood to be taken, remind yourself never to underestimate your ability to do what you do best. A lot of misconceptions will be thrown around about why you’re not at school. You’ll get called lazy more times than you can remember and you’re going to cry over it because of how frustrated you are. How can they understand if you don't really understand it yourself? But that’s ok. Crying is good. You’ll not worry when you get better grades than most come results day.

Don’t worry about what people think when you’re eating lunch by yourself or when you're not invited out. Those girls will peak too early and end up getting expelled for drugs and theft. Don’t let anyone tell you that you won’t do well - because you will. And when you get locked in that locker and left there, hang in there babe, you’ll be out soon. You’ll start to understand that being weird is a good thing and when people label you as it, take that as a compliment. You’ll meet other weirdos and they’ll be your most favourite people in the world. You do belong. You’re going to get your period later than everyone else and you will cry every day because you hate it. Please don’t cry, you’ll get used to it. Periods are pretty cool and it’s good to not be afraid to talk about it. Be stronger because, without it, you wouldn’t be able to have the most beautiful children you’ve ever laid eyes on. Hopefully.

The last two years of school will be complex and new. Discovering and accepting that you’re different, finding where you fit in and people disbelieving in you. Don't worry what people think of you, you're not perfect so don't try to be - be relatable, be honest and be yourself. You’ll love your teachers, they’ll be there for you because you give a damn about your subjects. They’ll want to help you and they will. Listen to them, trust them, do them proud and you’ll make yourself proud.

Your heart will get broken for the first time and it will really f*cking hurt but you've got to look after yourself because people aren't going to understand. Love will be questioned far too much and you’ll fall a few times. You’ll start to develop crushes on girls too but you won’t tell anyone for a while. It will be scary and you won't like it and for three years you'll hate yourself for it. Come out to yourself first. You’ll like boys again too, just not for a while so don’t worry about that now. Either way, labels are unnecessary, just be who you are. If others find it confusing, it’s a good job it has nothing to do with them. Love is love - it’s the person that matters not their anatomy. Those relationships are important and you'll have some of the happiest times of your life.

Age 19 you’ll start to get panic attacks, you’ll not want to eat much and when the colour of the sky or the pattern on your duvet make you want to throw up, just take your pill. Don’t worry if you have to stay awake all night, it can be fun sometimes. Just put down the blade, it won’t get you anywhere. Stand up for yourself. You’ve always been pretty good at that but don’t let it slip. Some people will try and take advantage of you and you won’t always realise that the situation you're in isn’t good. Yourself always comes first. You’ll be treated like a doormat and your opinion won’t matter. When you realise and tell your friends... they’ll already know. You just wish they would have told you sooner. You deserve more than that.

Learn quickly that Instagram is just a highlights reel and no one else knows what the heck is going on, nor will they have their life together. Even celebrities get spots and forget to shave their pits from time to time. They’re just human babe. Don’t ever think you’re worthless or unlucky. If you want something, work hard and get it. Your future self will thank you later.

And, if any of this is worth remembering, don’t cut that fringe, and for god sake, if you do, don’t do it yourself three minutes after having the idea. You’ll hate it. Like really, really hate it.

Always be grateful and never ever ashamed.

Much love x

*Photo credit @jasminedowling

Wednesday, 15 March 2017

Miami Daze | Swamp Breed x Andy Foster

If you've been on The Messy Edit recently you would have seen my recent post about an incredible new T-shirt brand called Swamp Breed. From my hometown of Bristol, Joe is smashing it and I'm over the moon to be working with him again on his new stuff. You can read Joe's interview with me, Joe in Wonderland, here.

Joe and Andy met on the uni course they're currently studying and the collaboration Miami Daze was born. When two impressive creatives come together and create something so brilliant it's like fireworks are being set off. "If you have ever met Andy Foster he is a very quirky interesting character, with his own unique style that makes him stand out from a crowd. His positivity resonates with me and he's just an overall great person." The new collection includes a hand painted skateboard and mug with an original piece created for Swamp by Andy Foster on them. If that's not insanely innovative, I don't know what is...

I'm honestly just in awe of them both as they're killing it while at uni still and not many people can say the same. "I wanted to work with someone closely on two items that weren't garment related because I feel like this would separate me from just being another T-shirt brand. We came to the conclusion that doing a limited edition skateboard hand painted by him and a mug is perfect for our collaboration and I am extremely excited with the final outcome of it all and to release to the public."

Literally how cool is this?! It's hand painted. I am in love. I'm not a skater. Or should I say, I'm not a natural born skater, however, I have always imagined being a professional - as you do. Imagine eight year old me for example, (I feel like I've talked about little Emily a lot recently), who has a big sister that owns a skateboard. That was the optimum of cool and so naturally I was jealous as heck. Rainy day, Saturday, shifty corner shop - they had a tiny section of toys and on the bottom shelf in the left-hand corner was a skateboard, but not just any skateboard, a badass miniature one that was perfect for below average sized Emily. I cried, I begged and good ol' Mumma McGuire pulled through. Hallelujah, DREAMS REALLY DO COME TRUE.


And it was just downhill from there. Fast forward 13 years and I still can't bloody skate. Yet I refuse to take no for answer and my love for the art of skateboarding is still very much alive.

Both items will be available on the website, from 9 pm tonight (15th March '17).

Follow Swamp Breed on Twitter and Instagram to stay up to date.

*Photos are courtesy of Swamp Breed.

Monday, 6 March 2017

Nailed It | Elegant Touch Glue on Nails Review

I feel like I have my life together when I have my nails on. I could literally conquer the world.

So after wandering the aisles of Boots, I spotted Elegant Touch. Getting my nails done is something I've always wanted to try but not something that's really in my budget... And then I decided that these are the perfect compromise. I'm not much of a DIY girl and so I was slightly apprehensive when it came to having to apply glue, but it was so bloody easy and not messy at all THANK GOD. The application process should take around 10-15 minutes in total, however, I did take a little longer just to triple check everything I was doing was right to avoid glueing my fingers together instead (I was close).

First impressions were very good. I first chose the shade 'Next Stop New York' which is a matte oxblood/plum colour. It's definitely more of a winter shade, or if you're me it's an all year around shade because I basically only dress in dark colours (will this ever change?!) They come in so many different shades and shapes I don't have to worry about the paint chipping which is the bane of my life.

I was also very interested to try out their new super-flex technology, as I can remember being little with my little Barbie fake nails that never fit and hurt like a bitch because they were hard and over curved. I have to say their flexibility made my life so much easier and they're so comfy. I expected to feel them on the ends of my fingers or for them to get in the way, but neither was true, which is a huge benefit for me as I write and type a lot. Who knew fake nails had come so far since I was seven...

They lasted around six days for me and considering they claim they last up to 10 days I don't think that's bad. It's really beneficial for me when I have a weekend of events or a busy week at work and I can do my nails so quickly without having to worry about them. I've since bought like eight more different styles and colours and I'm just loving it. The ends of the nails are thicker so they're much stronger but still flexible. At a price of around £6 - £8 a packet, it's a pretty lovely price and most drugstores often have 3 for 2 offers on them as well. Free? Yes, please! I've got Garnet, Power Trip and Valentina yet to try, I'm currently wearing Emerald.

The only negative thing I have to say about the product is that I have pretty small hands and small nails and there were a lot more big nails then smaller nails in the packet. This meant I couldn't use the same size on some of my nails even though these would be a better fit, resulting in a wide nail base on a few nails It still looks good though and I'm going to keep using them, however, it would be great if they did more duplicate smaller sizes!

I'm keen to try the Elegant Touch Super Adhesive Tabs soon too to find out if I prefer these or glue. These are best if you want to change your nails more often. NEXT UP... their House of Holland collaboration!


Wednesday, 1 March 2017

Take Yourself Out

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So it's March already!! I'm so glad February is out of the way, it always seems to drag on despite being the shortest month of the year...

If you're a keen reader of mine you would have noticed I didn't post on Sunday AND I'M SORRY! I've been working my butt off and I just haven't had time. Yeah I know, "plan ahead Emily". A bit late for that. I'm starting my new job next week so I'll start to get into more of a routine soon I promise. I post Wednesday's and Sunday's at 8 pm and you can follow me on Bloglovin' to get my posts or subscribe to get them straight in your inbox (it's up on your right!)

February was a very complex month, to say the least, and I'm totally ready to leave that behind and start fresh. I recently saw a couple of people on Twitter saying that they wanted to go to the cinema by themselves but they thought it was weird. If you're wondering the same - it's not.

Having people to go out with and have fun is amazing but doing things by yourself is also super nice. When I worked odd shifts I took myself out to the cinema, for meals, to the museum all by myself because I wanted to and I wasn't going to sit around and wait for someone to come with. (Plus no one was around.)

I think it's really important to invest time in yourself. Self-love and all that. 'Me' time doesn't have to be staying in and resting (although a hot bubble bath is an essential) it can mean taking yourself on an adventure, doing things by yourself, having fun, going to the beach. THIS DOESN'T MEAN YOU'RE A LONER OK! It's actually quite a liberating experience, to be honest. Going to the cinema by myself is a favourite of mine - it's basically an upgraded version of watching Netflix in bed. What's not to love?!

If you read my previous post Cheap Date Weekend, all these ideas can easily be done by yourself too. It's a good way of getting to know yourself. I know that probably sounds weird because we hang out with ourselves 24/7, but you might not necessary know what you really like a dislike within some aspects of life. So give it a go? Wine and dine yourself...

Wednesday, 22 February 2017

If I Could Go Back

I had some crazy goals when I was younger. My 'when I grow up' answer changed on the weekly and every career was an option. I could do anything, the world was my oyster and I was going to stay at home forever and be rich (young Emily was realistic as f*ck.)

My ultimate goal was to work on the tills in Morrison's - and to quote eight-year-old Emily "If I'm going to work here I'm going to have to redesign the uniform because it's gross." I had big dreams... I wanted to be a lawyer once so I began to read the dictionary. I did not make it past A. I wanted to be a police offer, I wanted to be an author (still do), I wanted to be a fashion designer, and a makeup artist, a hairdresser, a photographer, a TV presenter, a spy, a computer hacker, a prima ballerina, a singer, an actress and the list goes on...

If I could go back and do anything I would want to be a ballerina. I've always wanted to do that. I used to daydream about going to The Royal Ballet School and just being immersed in the whole atmosphere of classical dance and dedicating my life to training and performing. I was too old and not good enough really but it didn't stop my mind from wandering.

It's so easy to think back at what would have been. Who and where would I be if I'd accepted my offer at makeup school, and not gone to business school? Who would I be in love with, where would I be living, would I have more or less money in the bank? The way your story is written is incredible and much like Gwyneth Paltrow in Sliding Doors, a second can change your life and rewrite your story.

However, I wouldn't change a thing.

Past events have changed me for the best, I've met people I love, people I strongly dislike and every minute of each day no matter what it incurs has shaped me. I have a lot to learn, but the people I've met are teaching me, I'm growing through having inspiring and amazing people in my life and I'm forever grateful for it. Why dwell on the past? Regret moments? Without my past, I wouldn't be my present...

Wednesday, 15 February 2017

I Wrote You a Letter

I used to hate cards. I would hate how expensive they are (still do to be honest) and how the next day the words "To... Happy Birthday! Love Emily xx" were just thrown straight in the bin. BUT, the other day something clicked and I thought...


How trivial is it to Facebook message someone, write on their timeline or a text. Birthdays, valentines, anniversaries, weddings, Christmas, babies, engagements - it's all the same. Us Millennials are doing it more and more, even for people close to us. I bet half of us don't even know where the nearest Post Office is. However, a card sent is going out of your way for someone. It's a dying fashion, but such a beautiful one. This doesn't deserve to be forgotten.

I'm not talking about those six-word cards, don't get me wrong. I think what needs to change is really thinking about the card and what goes inside. If you're going to send one, wouldn't it make so much more sense to make it worth your and their while? Letter writing is also dying. Can you even remember the last letter you wrote or received? All those incredible preserved letters from history and what have we got to show now? Deleted text messages and an Instagram account?

So let's tie them both together and write long letters inside cards. Even add extra paper in. Make it messy, honest, colourful... Add pictures, recipes or confetti just because (maybe warn them before opening for that last one) Even find yourself a pen pal?! What a pretty way to let someone know they're on your mind.
The day I had my epiphany I bought a huge pile of cards so I was ready for whatever I wanted to say. I made a vow to always send cards and say more than a few words too. It's a gesture of care, of love. Keeping in touch is harder now when the world has supposedly made it easier. Scrap that useless small talk, it's always forgotten about. All texts are. But a letter or a card can say so much - and who doesn't love getting post!!

Someone's gone to a shop, bought you a card, thought about the written message. Wrote it, got a stamp and posted it. How long did sending that Whatsapp take? Yes, I hear you, it costs money, but doesn't your relationship with that person? Letters are personal, real and thoughtful. Don't let that fade.


Sunday, 12 February 2017

The Blogger Recognition Award

I was nominated for The Blogger Recognition Award by Maria, Milenka and Sophie! Thank you so much girls for nominating me, it genuinely means a lot, especially coming people who I absolutely adore. I will be forever grateful!

The Rules:

  1. Thank the blogger/s who nominated you and provide a link to their blog
  2. Write a post to show your award.
  3. Give a brief story of how your blog started.
  4. Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers.
  5. Select 15 bloggers, you want to give this award to.
  6. Comment on each blog and let them know you have nominated them, providing a link to the post you created.

How my blog started...

I started my blog only in November and I'm so so happy I did. I used to blog back in the year under a pseudonym, but due to other commitments, I couldn't keep on top of it. I'm glad though as I've come back unafraid and as myself and I'm so much happier. Last time just wasn't the right time, but it's always something I've wanted to do. I love writing, I have done since I can remember and I started writing my first book aged 15. Having my own place online, to express and share what goes on in my head is really important to me. It's my happy place.

Advice for new bloggers...

I think one of the most important things is to connect with people. I'm only new to blogging myself and connecting with other bloggers has been the best. You make friends, you're talking to people who have the same interests and goals as you and it's a good way of finding out more about the industry you're entering into, events happening and finding cool new things people are promoting.

Write about what YOU want to write about, not what everyone else is doing. On my old blog, I used to do monthly favourites and I didn't particularly enjoy writing them but I felt like I needed to because everyone else was and I thought it was going to attract people to my blog. Your blog should represent you and your personality. And that's what people will actually want, you'll stand out and it will be amazing because you're genuine.

I nominate...

I hope you've all had a great weekend and do check out some of the nominated blogs.

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Wednesday, 8 February 2017

Straight From The Heart

I don't like my body. It's disproportionate. My ribs stick out yet I have big bum that's like a mound of jelly getting in the way. I resemble a pear. My boobs are so small I find it hard buying bras. Buying clothes that fit is impossible. I have trouble getting dressed because there's only so many long tees I can wear to cover up my thighs. I don't like me in the mirror. And that's just the beginning of the list.

It's 2017 and make up no longer seems a choice, but a necessity. I don't feel like wearing make up sometimes but if I'm working I have to. To look presentable, to look like I give a damn. I couldn't go to an interview without make-up on. I wouldn't be at all surprised if they didn't hire me purely based on the fact that I had a bare face. Looks are an illusion to cloud the raw person in front of you. We all blur and correct and for what?

It's a mask. It's hiding my dark circles that haven't left me since I was ten years old. It's hiding my blemishes and discolouration and spots because we've been taught it's ugly. And I am conditioned to think I'm ugly without make up on. So that's how I feel.

But it's my body, so why isn't it my choice?

Courage comes from the Latin word 'Cor' which means heart. So courage literally comes from the heart, and recently I'm finding this meaning to be my light at the end of the tunnel. To love yourself, to be happy and do what you want can't be manufactured, it takes genuine feeling and bravery straight from the heart. It takes courage.

The world is changing; in environment, in politics, just everywhere really. People are at risk every single day and society is bothered with my appearance. I've always seen society from an outsiders point of view, as if I'm not included, and only recently I've realised I am a person that helps make up society and I am guilty of judgement. Society is really just a word for group opinion. Society thinks... Society does... it's all just the people around us, like you and me. So how easy would it be to change?

If everyone makes their opinion heard, their presence known, this CAN change. We CAN build a world that is accepting that we want to live in. We CAN teach the world that it's OK to be whoever you chose to be. Spread joy, spread love, end hate.

Who's with me?


Sunday, 5 February 2017

Get Down and Dirty | Bioré Deep Pore Charcoal Cleanser Review

Recently my skin has been the worst it has ever been. I've never really had bad skin, apart from the occasional spot, however, since travelling and smacking on a tonne of oily sun cream, my skin hasn't really been the same. Now I'm working again and having to wear make-up almost every day, it's not helping my current face situation.

I recently decided to reignite my love for the Bioré Deep Pore Charcoal Cleanser. If you haven't tried Bioré's products before I would definitely recommend them for any skin type, but especially oily skin. Even if you're not spotty or don't have blackheads, it keeps your skin fresh and free from bacteria. It leaves my skin super soft and smooth, exfoliating it at the same time. I feel reborn every day, so that's a great feeling.

The charcoal in the product draws out the dirt and impurities deep within your pores fully cleansing your face leaving your face skin tingling smooth. It's honestly the best skin product I've ever used and isn't expensive at all. It's tough enough that it cleans skin twice as much as a normal cleanser and actually gets down and dirty unlike a lot of other brands. It's not an abrasive product and can be used daily. I personally use this in the shower because having a wet face when my body is dry just freaks me out and also I cringe at the thought of water running down my arms. Ehhhhhhhhhhh no. *cringing now writing this*

I used to use this product when I was studying and after a pretty heavy night drinking I woke up early for class, jumped in the shower, and used this cleanser. It was then realised at this point I was still drunk as I thought my face was burning off due to the tingling sensation it gives you. It woke me up though...



Wednesday, 1 February 2017

Cheap Date Weekend

The 1st of February is finally upon us today. 2017 is setting out to be a good year for me so far - I mean, to be honest, it's been one month so it's a little premature for me to say so, however, if we don't have hope what do we have?!

The start of the year is usually when we all take a good snoop inside our bank accounts and realise we need to stop spending like we're Queens and put all our cards in the freezer 'Confessions of a Shopaholic' style. No spend January is going to be no spend February too.

With Valentine's day coming up, not everyone is in a position to be making it rain with those dollar bills, SO, I've come up with some fun date ideas that require little or no money for you besties and lovebirds out there:

Netflix & Chill - Let's not beat around the bush here, we all know what this really means, BUT, let's make it even better and build... a fort. Honestly what better way to feel like a princess than to chill in front of a film from a fort. Throw down those blankets, sofa cushions, pillows and duvets then hang those silky drapes and fairy lights for ultimate cosiness. Set the mood lighting and if you're feeling extra special sprinkle some rose petals everywhere too. Am I right?!

Walk and Picnic - Taking a walk or exploring a new part of the city is honestly one of my new favourite things now I've just moved. Being a tourist in your own city or showing them around your hometown if they're not from there is such a cute way to get to know each other. Even just a leisurely walk in a field or forest is dreamy knowing there's gonna be food at the end of it. And if you have a dog, it's all the better.

Pudding - If your eyes glanced to this point first then you're my kinda person. When people think of dates, it's often going out for a meal, but as my bank statement is aware, meals can be expensive and it's not always a viable option for students or low earners. However, going out just for pudding is perfect and pretty great as it's half the price. Why not up the romantics and share instead? Yum.

Museums - The amount of free and cheap museums and exhibitions around is amazing. You'd be surprised how many have free entry to be honest, and with a range of different topics, you're likely to find something to suit such as history, art, photography, fashion, notable people and cars. It's a bit of a different way to learn about their interests and you're probably going to find something new to interest you too.


Sunday, 29 January 2017

Show a Little Self-Care

I'm no self-care guru. In fact, I'm the complete opposite and I'm not too good at doing things for myself. Looking after myself doesn't come naturally for me and getting out of a self-destructive past is not always an easy thing to do.

It's not that I don't want to do nice things for myself, it's actually because I'm lazy and my problem is making time to care for my body.

  • It took me two months to get around to painting my nails.
  • I moisturise my body maybe once a week if my room is warm enough and I'm in no rush.
  • My leg hair pokes out the bottom of my jeans too many times to count.
  • I struggle with sleeping too long.
  • I have to hide those designer bags under my eyes (I know, I know, like you haven't heard that one before.) Honestly, once my makeup comes off I look like death.
  • I'm 21 and I still forget to brush my teeth twice a day. Gross.

So how do I do better? I need to make time for myself and care for my skin, nails and hair. Maybe you can relate? Because at the end of the day I know I feel good about myself when I do all these things. As an extension to my new year's resolutions 'I won't be mean to myself', is to care for myself and my body. I am, however, human and I'm not perfect and never will be... but I'd like to feel good about myself and that's cool.

Do you struggle with self-care? Let me know in the comments below!

Sunday, 22 January 2017

Realities of the Underground

Edgware 2 mins. The black boxed sign shines above as you slow down from running miles to make sure you don't miss this exact tube even though there is another one exactly one minute behind. You walk to the part of the platform you do every single day and stand in the place where you bet yourself 20 quid the door will stop, and you'll gracefully waltz into the tube and take a seat. But that was an ideal world...

The tube pulls in as your sweaty mess of a body trips into the platform to catch the train, knickers riding higher, never to be seen again. A huge group of people swarm the doors and you hop jog to the nearest one, patiently waiting to get on while an announcement can be heard all around - “Please let passengers off the train before boarding” just as three grumpy corporate workers and one savage woman in a full velour tracksuit elbow their way onto the train without giving two sh*ts about anyone else; as long as they get on. After being pushed back and forth multiple times, it's suddenly your turn. You take the step up and then it hits you. The smelly, sweaty heat suffocates your lungs and starts to stick to your skin seeping into every layer of clothing you wish you had removed prior to arriving. It consumes you. Stuck to the sides of about seven human beings, you take a deep breath knowing that if you were ever duct taped to a man's armpit in the Sahara desert, you'd survive it. Then, the hot flushes start and you can't even breathe or take your coat off and the beads of sweat are developing on your forehead so quickly that you just pray the armpits don't closely follow.

It's time to get a look at your surroundings and work out what you really just got yourself into. Deep down you know everyone is either going to have their backs to you or judging you with hollow eyes, so you rotate your neck the best you can to get the gist of it. The hair of the lady closely in front of you tickles your face so you quickly retreat into the position you're stuck in, just crossing your fingers that everyone gets off at the next stop to free up some space.

The first stop comes into sight and you eye up who you think is going to get off. A few stops later and a seat opens up. A SEAT. Only a few shuffles away it becomes a fight for survival as you catch the eye of the woman on the other side ploughing through the carriage. Time slows down and you begin to move, butt first, hoping that a gap appears so you can slide in on it before it's too late. The sharpness of your nails drifts through your head and it's one on one now. Just as you think you are going to come out the champion someone new comes into the equation and goes in for the win. Bastard.

The train's filled up even more at this point and it's nearly your stop. Military exit strategies begin to form in your mind and panic is rippling down the nape of your neck as you wonder if you'll ever manage to get out of this death trap. The train slows… The doors open… GET OUT OF MY F*CKING WAY you shout silently inside as in reality you're quietly mumbling ‘excuse me’ under your breath while sliding your body against a sandwich of people, slowly making your way to the door. All of a sudden it's as if you're being sucked back and you have to go against the force of this black hole behind you and then... You're off. Resting bitch face at the ready, prepared to elbow through the station.

Sunday, 15 January 2017

Tips For Badass Blonde Hair

Thinking of going blonde? DO IT! I was blonde for over a year, and although I've just gone au natural again, I thought I'd pass on my knowledge to the next new blonde. Girls gotta help each other out right?!

Getting your hair bleached is a big deal so think about it carefully. As well as stripping the colour from your hair, bleach also strips a lot of nutrients and proteins that keep your hair soft and healthy. So straw hair may be a literal reality...

1. Get it done professionally - I cannot stress this enough and I'll admit I was naive and went through some trouble before I gave in and let someone do it for me. Hairdressers know what they're doing and you'll avoid patchy hair, orange bands, tears and insecurities. LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES! A lot of salons now use an Olaplex treatment and although I've not had it, I've heard rave reviews.

2. Colour - If you're keen to maintain your bleach blonde hair as a fresh white blonde shade without the brassy yellow tones, then I recommend investing in some purple shampoo. It acts like a toner to neutralise the yellow in your hair but in a handy shampoo. My two favourites are PROVOKE Touch of Silver Brightening Shampoo and Bleach London's Silver ShampooPROVOKE is my first choice as it's a tame product, but does the job perfectly. I find it lifts the hair more consistently in terms of shade and leaves it looking salon done. Bleach London's is strong so don't leave this in too long unless you're going for a purple look! However, it's a brilliant product from a great company and gives a good result.

3. Hydration - Your hair is going to get really dry as bleach is pretty damaging. Deep treatment conditioners are fab and shampoo and conditioners that contain keratin proteins repair and replace what's been stripped out. For the first few months, it's important to try and rebuild your hair's strength.

4. Roots - Don't leave your roots too long if you've got dark hair as it's harder to lift the pigment and will leave you with a large band of orange hair for roots. It's recommended you get your roots done every 4-6 weeks, which is when the hair is about an inch. However, the darker the hair the sooner I'd recommend getting it done.

5. Cut those ends - Dead ends are a big no no. Your hair can't repair itself if half of it is dead so you gotta get those ends off. It keeps it healthy and actually makes it grow faster, so if you're putting off having your hair cut because you like the length, you'll actually benefit from cutting it in the long run.

If you have any questions leave them in the comments below or share any hair mishaps of your own!

Sunday, 8 January 2017

Booking a One Way Flight

The notion of quitting your job and flying to the other side of the world to go travelling where nobody knows you is fairly romantic in thought. You can go anywhere in the world, be whoever you want to be, and do whatever you want.

So that's what I did. I quit my customer service job, dropped my life in the UK and went to spend a year in Australia. But two months later, back to England I came. Truth is,  I didn't enjoy it as much as everyone else. I wasn't getting the excitement from freedom and spontaneity as everyone else. And quite frankly I was fed up of living out of a suitcase, wearing flipflops in the shower and sleeping in dorms.

The experience was needed. I needed to go so I knew it wasn't for me and now I'm not going to wish all my life 'what would have been?' I did some incredible things that some people can only dream of and for that, I am very thankful I had the opportunity to go. But for me, it wasn’t quite right and I ended up realising I’d fallen in love with the idea of travelling, not the actual travelling. I am part of the 10% of little human beings that don’t like travelling. Or leaving home ever for that matter.

One month in, I thought I'd made a huge mistake. I'd spent thousands, I was unemployed, going back to live with my parents (after not living at home properly for 4 years) and I'd put my relationship at risk. This is a very scary realisation when you're literally on the other side of the world. But I knew, if I wanted to I could be home in 24 hours, so that kept me sane for the most part. I also met some really lovely people who I hope to keep in touch with for a long time. And not so great people too...

If you're thinking of going, you have to. You have to experience different cultures and learn more about yourself. I wouldn't necessarily recommend Australia as, to be honest, it's a very weird place... But definitely travel around and you'll have memories to cherish. If you're not sure, go for a short amount of time and then you can always stay longer if you'd like, or go some place different.

At the end of the day, I am myself and I always will be. So many people told me that I'd regret coming home and I'm wasting an opportunity of a lifetime, and I can understand that, however, I haven't and I'm really happy with my decision.


Wednesday, 4 January 2017

Serious Idol Material

There are some truly incredible and talented people on the internet and are exceptional at what they do. These women inspire me to be the best I can be and I learn from them daily. I hope that I get to meet them all one day.

In no particular order, here is a list of my favourite bloggers and why:

Pages by Megan - If I could trade places with anyone for the day it would be Megan. She's my newest favourite lady and everything about her is colourful and confident. From one look at her blog or social media, you'll adore her straight away and understand why she's a favourite.

Superlatively Rude - I learn more from Laura than I do from some people I know in real life. Her unfaltering honesty is refreshing and I'm so proud that she gets to share her words even more with her second book release this coming April. She's funny, an uplifting read and will make you think differently. Serious idol.

What Oliva Did - I see Olivia as a role model. Despite her only being two years older than me, she inspires me to work hard to be where she is today. I'm in awe of her style and the relaxed feel of her blog posts. She's someone to have a cuppa with and chat mindlessly about anything.

Wonderful You - Megs is one of the first bloggers I came across last year and she's just flawless from head to toe. It makes me happy when she gets recognition because you can tell how hard she works and she deserves it all. She's ridiculously photogenic and incredibly genuine which translates throughout her blog.

Shot From The Street - Lizzie is just the coolest girl in Manchester and probably England too. She's a fashion blogger and a serious style inspiration to me, even though she just kills each outfit 10x times more than I ever will. I have serious wardrobe envy and would recommend her always.

NYC Bambi - I found Christie though her flawless Instagram feed and our mutual friend Hannah. She's an old soul living in New York and her blog oozes vintage dreams and cosy aesthetic goals. Her pictures are flawless and part of me just wishes I was her, like all the time.
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